I'm not the girl I once was and that's pretty scary to me. I used to be so happy and healthy and skinny and pretty and now I don't feel like I'm any of those things anymore. And the worst part is that I don't even know how I got here. And if I don't know how I got to this point, how will I find my way back?
I was once someone I was proud to be and knew exactly who I was and what I wanted and where I wanted to go, but now... I feel like all of that is just up in the air. Like someone stuck my life in the paper shredder, then threw the pieces on the floor. So it's like I can look and see pieces of that girl, small fragments of words on the pieces of a page, but I don't know what order they go in anymore, or if they even belong to me at all. How do I put me back together?
And the words that stand out the most on the floor aren't the most reassuring ones. I think the good words got lost somehow, or covered up or cut up or separated, but the negative ones managed to stick together, on top.
I'm scared I'll never get back to that girl I enjoyed being.
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