I Fall for it every time. (Pt 1)

It never ceases to amaze me
how you never cease to betray me
but it's almost to point where it doesn't phase me,
as you you rephrase the old tricks
disguised as a new script that prevent me from predicting
the promises you make but don't intend to keep

it never ceases to amaze me
how i'm on the cusp of trusting you
but you're so caught up in the lust of it
that you don't notice me adjust and push you away
because i'm so disgusted.
With you for feeling the need to discuss the subject
but it's something i should expect by now,
manage to deflect the disrespect that rolls so easily off your tongue but...
it has a new mask now,
so it slides through to me unchecked
and now i'm disgusted with me
for misplacing my trust and
thrusting my heart at you when you weren't ready to catch it

it never ceases to amaze me
how after all this time
you still know how to push my buttons
somehow the order is still the same
to put that smile on my face
and fill my balloon
higher and higher
until it's in just the right place
for you to pop it,
You keep a straight face
during my fall from grace
and erase every trace of you
so my heart is displaced and broken
and i look like the nut case
who fell for the new tricks from the same old boy.

it never ceases to amaze me
how just as I start to replace you
and find somebody new

and embrace the fact that I'm fine without you

you decide to touch base

just in case i almost forgot you.

I put my poker face on and brace for impact

because my memory only seems to retrace the good times

blacked out the fact that you left my heart cracked

and now that its back intact you want to reenact every moment of my fall.

It never ceases to amaze me

no matter what condition I'm in
you seem to be on a mission to break my strength

And despite my best efforts to keep you at arm's length,

you break through,

and somehow I fall for you.





To Be Continued..... (And possibly retitled)